Just kidding! I no longer think much about him. Except when it's his weekend to have the kids and then I'm just damned annoyed that I have to give them up for a few days. He's an asshat but he's no longer my asshat so silver linings, baby....
For anybody out there who just got their heart trounced on and thinks OMG, how can I get through this? Let me tell you, you will get through it. And you will be all the better for getting a cheating douchebag asshat out of your life. And eventually it will no longer define you and you will be you again. YUP, it's possible, hang in there. You WILL be YOU again. Or maybe I should say, you will be a better version of YOU.
Divorce changes you, there's no doubt about that. I'm a meaner bitchier version of myself. Some may say I was always a bitch but I would disagree. I used to be nice once upon a time. Now I'm a jaded pessimistic untrusting bitch. And you know what? I like this version of me so much better. I feel strong and I don't give a shit what anyone thinks of me. I am woman, hear me ROAR.
My kids are front and center in my life now. And the damn dogs. Including the pissing machine of a puppy that we adopted. He's become housebroken in just a few short weeks. Housebroken meaning that he only goes pee inside the house of course. If he goes pee outside, it's just an accident. Last night he peed a huge puddle on the stairs. I didn't see it until I stepped in it and after cursing my wet sock, I said, 'I don't know how one puppy can possibly pee so much.'
My daughter said, 'I don't know either but let's not let it get the best of us.'
Fucking HI-LAR-IOUS my daughter is. God, I love that kid. Now every time I wipe up a puddle of urine flowing across my maple floor (approximately 247 times a day), I repeat to myself, 'Let's not let it get the best of us.'
I'm still reading....and have been for awhile....do you feel like you could ever trust a man again?? I honestly don't think I could....
ReplyDeleteIt's interesting that you ask that because I ask myself the same question and my answer is always, 'No, I won't ever be able to trust a man again.' I see happy couples and I feel no jealousy because I don't even want that now. Can't imagine being tied to someone and having to trust him and let him touch me. Yuck. Yeah I'm still fucked up over what happened. Maybe I'll get over that feeling, maybe I won't. Being an old crazy dog lady has some appeal.
DeleteI'm still here too and I love that quote gonna use it too thanks!!! ;) glad to see you getting over Asshat - fenix (too lazy to login LOL)
ReplyDeleteThere is life after an asshat. The best is yet to come. Isn't that a song? :)
DeleteI have been reading and reading andI feel I might be your soul siser. Men are all alike I have given some thought to writing a blog just to get all these thoughts out of my head. My husband has bee cheating "off and on" witht the same women going on six years now. does he still have sex with her I don't know, do they see each other everyday, yes, she works with him and just recently got promoted and works directly under him (more ways then one). How am I still married to him, I ask my self that everyday, Weak I guess, But your blog helps. Thanks for writing it!
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