'What time do you want to meet tomorrow?', I asked, avoiding looking at him. I can't bear to even make eye contact. 'What time works for you?', he replied. 'I don't care,' I said. During this exchange, my daughter still has her arms latched around him, her face pressed tightly against his stomach.
'How about 3:00?', he says. Fine I say.
Maybe I'm living up to my vindictive bitch nickname but after not seeing nor talking to your children for seven weeks, I expected him to at least want them until the evening. I need to learn to keep my expectations nonexistent. And I need to learn to form a protective cocoon around my heart because both of my kids' reactions to seeing their father again after nearly two months makes it crack a little.
And it brings a few tears to my eyes to write this which really pisses me off. Why is he willing to forego seeing his own children on a daily basis in order to try to obtain the mythical 'happiness'? Why were we not enough for him? I don't understand it and I never will.
There is no explanation for this behavior, NONE, because it is simply insane. My douche demanded to have Labor Day as his holiday during mediation. I had to give it to him because I got most of the others. Guess what, the idiot was too busy with his whore the past two days, he forgot all about his kids and his "special holiday". When he asked for them today at 330, I had to inform him that I rearranged my entire day, canceled my own plans all because he failed to remember to pick up his kids on his "demanded day". This genius had the gall to say he didn't know schools were closed today. Really, you are 36 years old and you don't know that schools are closed on Labor Day.
ReplyDeleteMy five year old still runs to the douche's car during drop offs and gives his dad a big hug. But my 7 year always refuses to get out of my car. Try not to let your kids emotions for their dad affect you.
I haven't looked my ex in the eye in four months. Good thing my boys are so short because it helps me to always look down when in his presence. There is no reason to make eye contact with people who have betrayed you.
Remember that your H is an asshole and 1 day with his kids can't make up for the great summer you have given them.
Narcissists only care about numero uno. They are willing to throw it all away in search of "happiness" or "finding themselves". I am sorry you got sucked in by one too!
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