A little kiss of freedom,
I've forgotten how that tasted.
A little room for breathing,
then you're on your way.
There's a million little reasons
for this smile on my face.
Without those tears in my eyes
I bet you'd hardly recognize me.
I've forgotten how that tasted.
A little room for breathing,
then you're on your way.
There's a million little reasons
for this smile on my face.
Without those tears in my eyes
I bet you'd hardly recognize me.
I've been a little distracted lately. The kids are on school vacation, and I'm having some work done on my house. Nothing major, just replacing a door that stopped opening. Literally. It won't open. It's the little things you take for granted in life, like having a main door to your house function. I'll be living the dream once I have a new door and the ability to leave my house an alternative way.
I woke up this morning and thought, is today someone's birthday? A famous date in history? What is it about today's date that makes me feel like I'm forgetting something? I didn't have time to mull it over too long, I was running late for work.
As I was taking a walk on my lunch hour, it washed over me like a cascading tidal wave what the date is today. February 28th. GODDAMN IT, it's February 28th. OMG. One year ago today my ex-husband dropped his bombshell and told me that he was leaving to find his happiness (in someone else's pants evidently). I don't think he looks at Pinterest much... otherwise he would have seen all the inspirational pins 'You're responsible for your own happiness' and 'Happiness can't be found in someone else's vagina'. (Okay, I made that last one up.)
One year ago today he ripped apart my safe little world and my kids' intact family. One year ago today I would have never dreamed it possible to not immediately be aware of what occurred on this date. Now I can totally visualize that in another year's passing, February 28th will be just another day.
Time does heal all wounds.
Now I wake up early,
whole world feels new.
Seems so strange to ask myself
what do I want to do.
Now I don't know this road I'm on
or where it's leading to,
but I know I'm gonna be alright.
The more I see, the more I like me.
whole world feels new.
Seems so strange to ask myself
what do I want to do.
Now I don't know this road I'm on
or where it's leading to,
but I know I'm gonna be alright.
The more I see, the more I like me.
All normal feelings. I experienced the same a few weeks go, I had my BD day and would be anniversary a few days apart. I've found that putting all my energy and focus on my kids and myself has helped a lot. Now when my kids father shows up to kids sporting events, I'm able to look right through him. I'm glad you are moving forward and not stuck with unwanted hatred. Keep doing what you are doing.
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