I got the cheapest motel room that I could find and this translated into the smallest motel room in the state of Maine. Oh well, we just used it to crash in, no need for additional space. The kids were tickled that we were staying in a hotel and I was pleased that there didn't appear to be drug deals going on in the parking lot.
We had a lovely time hanging out by the water and racing the waves, building sandcastles and people watching. We saw a band play near the beach and the woman was singing an Adele song. My daughter asked if that was really Adele. My son looked at all the gray haired musicians and said, 'Would Adele have a bunch of old people in her band?' Six year olds are not known for their tact.
When we checked into our motel and entered our room, my daughter asked for a pen. Why, I asked? She wanted to fill out the comment card. Why, I asked again? 'Because they didn't leave a light on for us,' she said with disappointment. Yes, the smallest room in the state of Maine resides in a Motel 6.
My kids make me laugh so much. Creating memories with them and watching as they experience new things is my definition of happiness. Tomorrow Army Boy is supposed to return to town and I'm assuming he's going to want the kids for an upcoming weekend. Soon my anger and resentment are going to bubble up again. Having to forego seeing your kids for a few days because your asshole of a cheating crotch waffle husband is divorcing you is just unnatural. I didn't sign up for this divorce, I didn't sign up for missing out on any of my kids' weekends, and it makes me so angry that I have to because my husband's idea of happiness wasn't our family and everything we shared.
the beach in Maine looks fun! my kids would love the crowds LOL
ReplyDeleteGlad you got away with your kids and made some good memories with them. "Soon my anger and resentment are going to bubble up again" You will feel amazing peace when it finally doesn't...Or when it only happens rarely. A friend who was tired of my self-defeating anger gave me this quote when I was going through my divorce and it stopped me in my tracks: "The great thing if one can, is to stop regarding all the unpleasant things as interruptions of one's "own" or "real" life. The truth is of course, that what one calls interruptions are precisely one's real life - the life God is sending one day by day; What one calls one's "real life" is a phantom of one's imagination. This is what I see at moments of insight: but it's hard to remember it all the time." ~ C.S. Lewis It made me realize no one signs up for catastrophes or even difficulties, but we all have them. How I deal with them is the only thing I can control. Being present in the moment - calmly embracing my very real life no matter that it wasn't what I had "planned" - changed the quality of my children's lives and was worth all the effort. Besides, what an awesome "revenge" it was. I thrived on not giving anyone the power to ruin my day or even a moment of it. Praying for healing for your battered heart.
ReplyDeleteWow -- this was an absolutely perfect message for me today, both Kay's post and Anonymous's follow-up. Thanks so much guys. (And to you too, C.S. Lewis!)
ReplyDeleteThe beach is always a good thing! I agree completely...that is what I'm most resentful of now. I have spent almost every single day of the last 14 years with my kids and now I have to not see them for days at a time because their father has no integrity. Makes me livid. Thanks for sharing!
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